Sunday, December 2, 2018

Tonight was Hard

Tonight my daughter was in a Christmas Concert, but I didn't have the money to attend.  It breaks my heart that money was the thing that kept me away.  I wanted to go and watch her more than anything!

I've been out of work for about 6 weeks now, the second time since August.  The first time was for 34 days, but I was only back to work 3 weeks before the lady I sit with ended up back in rebah for physical therapy again.  

The struggle had began the first time, but I believed that getting back to work would help me to back on track before things were too bad.  However, when she had to go right back it wasn't good!  I decided to go ahead and file for unemployeement since I didn't the first time, and I started applying for other jobs because it became clear that mine was no longer reliable.  However, I'm still waiting on unemployeement to approve or not and no response fromm any of the 20+ jobs I've appied for.  

I've tried my best to stay positive and do what I canto stay afloat, but tonight really hit me hard!!!  My daughter was very understandable, but she shouldn't have to be!  She should have hadher parents in the audience supporting her just as the other kids did.

Christmas is 23 days away and I can't help but wonder will it be yet another disappointmen she may have to endure.... I sure hope not!  I know gifts aren't the meaning of the Holiday, but it sure feels like the are a huge thing on the list of must-haves.

Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful, things could be much worse.  We are healthy and have a roof over our heads!!  Some don't have that this year!

However, I can't help but worry because if something doesn't change really soon we are going to start to lose things that we have worked really hard to get and get into a financial hole that it will take months/years to dig ourselves out of.  

So, keep me in your prayers that things will turn around, if you don't mind.  It releases some stress being able to get the worries out, if only for a minute!

Happy Holidays!  Wishing you and your family all the best!


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